Monday, October 20, 2008

depression...

when will this feeling go away? when can i stop doubting his feelings for me? although i want to believe him, i can't stop feeling this way. getting really really scared. will we be able to get past this? i really want us to last, but it feels almost deja vu, the same feelings i had when feng wanted to leave me.

he keeps askin me to stop thinking, but how can i not? i try to keep up my facade but i can only do this much. how can i tell him that deep down inside, i am actually really scared and have no confidence in the future anymore.

i don't know what to do anymore. taking one step at a time.....