Sunday, September 30, 2007

you are a sick excuse for a mum

THE RETURN OF THE PRODIGAL DAUGHTER

sorry to all for not updating my blog but i have somewhow gotten a weird preoccupation of updating my posts only when i have photos to upload.

which in other words, no photos = no mood to blog. so that explains why i haven't been updating my blog for the longest time. thanks to fel who took forever to upload her photos ( and some procrastination on my part) i am only able to blog now.

anyway, a latest update of me is that i have returned to my dad's and loving every moment. lotsa thanks to everyone at home for making me feel like non of all these nonsense has ever happened before. i love you! anyway, this experience only made me appreciate my family more than ever. and thanks jess for enlightening me.

anyway, regarding my dear mother of mine, well, you are a really sick excuse of a mother. i really do not want to diss you but i have to have an outlet to vent my anger ok? despite everything you have done, and that includes trying to brainwash me to hate my dad and all your shrewd lies, you still have the cheek to threaten me?

i leave not only because of your unscrupulous behaviour, but as i told you before, i AM more emotionally attached to my dad and despite what he has done, it can never be more hurting than the emotional damage you have etched in me.

threaten me all you want, but don't ever think i'll respect you like i used to. i know i am rebellious, but at least i am not DESPICABLE as you are.even as your own daughter, i find it loathsome just coming to think of it. which mother will actually hold her own daughter's property and actually use it to EXTORT money from her???

thank god that although i have an insane woman of a mother, i am ABLE TO KEEP SANE.

anyway, thanks for eveything you have done, and that includes your appalling behaviour and your contemptible lies, in which i think i'll never forget, at least for this lifetime. i deride you, seriously.

alright, now that i have gotten that off my chest, in which i am sincerly sorry for starting off on a bad tone,latest pictures, which includes a trip to sentosa and fel's birthday.

me , the birthday girl and a couple of sucky bourbon coke

rave is all about PEACE

one of fel's friend karen

my outfit for the day, i mean night

oh yea, cam-whoress UNITE!

anyway, me and fel have learnt our lesson not to go Phuture on a friday and as not only the music suck, there were like a gazilion of NS guys and the dance floor was so jam packed that you can only pray hard to yourself that your ass do not get groped. which by the matter of fact, god's hearing seemed to affected by the loud blasting of the sucky music to actually hear my prayers.

went beaching with anna and clement. too bad mr horny was not there or else it would have been more fun and that i would not feel as much of a lamp post than i already did.

anna and me, damn bad picture of me. went phuture the night before, so complexion sucked like shit

chewbacca

beach girl??

the way too glaring sun

alright, gotta go get my beauty sleep or else i would not be able to look fresh for church. nite all~

love,
chanel

♥ the last words are written at 12:27 AM

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

second day of school in a new semester

ALLEGED BUT NOT GUILTY

much as it may seem as a feasible idea that i was procrastinating again for the lack of updates(which on certain basis i AM guilty), i certainly was not. all thanks to my lappy crashing, i had to wait a good whole 2 weeks till school reopened before i can even blog!

oh well, i was uber busy during the holidays, so i do not feel as miserable not blogging.oops.
thinking back, i can't really seem to remember what i did. all i remembered was maybe the shopping spree and the night at Eski Bar, which was like, a few days ago?

oh yea! went Phuture on some random night with felicia and a few more thousand ear cells died again. however, did some serious grinding that night with her and attracted quite a number of attention. there were even people asking to treat us to drinks!

anyway, today is the second day of the new school term. which also means new class, new facilitators and new friends!! however, the lesson of the day was kinda shitty as it was on the links between conversion rules blah blah blah. you get the idea.

this topic is one which i would rather sleep on thank you very much. and speaking of sleep, i seriously am i need of it.

my new classmates are overall nice and fun to get along, with occasional lame and cold jokes being thrown around here and there. (i admit the cold jokes are from me ok?? stop sniggering already, mr horny!)

well, emotional coaster took a drastic plunge though after work. quarrelled with mum over something which i do not think even involves me at first which well, slowly got me involved. well, thanks mummy, for showing me your true colours, of how gigantesque a liar you are and how you are able to crush my world with just your frigging bare hands and surreptitious methods. i tried my best to appreciate the little things that you do for me but those hideous lies, am i suppose to just lap it up and forever be the subject of your monstrocity?? a puppet in which you are able to craft into your so called 'perfect' daughter?

what's worse is that you made me buy the story that my own father was going to turn against me and actually disown me?? so what now, are you trying to tell me that i am unwanted and that you are only keeping me in the shelter of your house because of the duty of a mother that bounds you? what good does it do to you? you said before that will die with no regrets as long as you get a funeral and that your body will not get eaten by dogs, OR that one day i might just see you in the paper as the next person who jumps in front of the train. seriously mummy,what are you implying at?? i've had enough of this nonsense, and to think i was able to put up with all this crap in primary school. you want me to be a good lil' girl and go home early daily,but you should seriously evaluate youself before you come judging my actions. which daughter will want to go home to a mum who threatens to commit suicide almost everytime there was a quarrel??

sorry for digressing and started dissing my mum. can't help it for the verbal vomit. on the lighter tone, pictures PiCtUrEs PICTURES!!