Wednesday, July 30, 2008

JADED

feeling f**king jaded.

sore throat killing me with fever as the accomplice.


last taken 38.4 degrees.


can't believe i even skipped dinner just to sleep and till now i'm still tired
....................................
more pictures of my baby gurl~~!!

waiting for me to feed her some kenny roger's chicken.

my baby before her hair cut.

love

chanel

♥ the last words are written at 3:25 PM

Friday, July 25, 2008

Unpublished Pablo Neruda poem

and to think i can be lost in something as subtle and passionate as this.

Tonight I Write

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.

Write, for instance: "The night is full of stars,and the stars, blue, shiver in the distance."

The night wind whirls in the sky and sings.

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

On nights like this, I held her in my arms.I kissed her so many times under the infinite sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her.How could I not have loved her large, still eyes?

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.To think I don't have her. To feel that I've lost her.

To hear the immense night, more immense without her.And the poem falls to the soul as dew to grass.

What does it matter that my love couldn't keep her.The night is full of stars and she is not with me.

That's all. Far away, someone sings. Far away.My soul is lost without her.

As if to bring her near, my eyes search for her.My heart searches for her and she is not with me.

The same night that whitens the same trees.We, we who were, we are the same no longer.

I no longer love her, true, but how much I loved her.My voice searched the wind to touch her ear.

Someone else's. She will be someone else's. As she oncebelonged to my kisses.Her voice, her light body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, true, but perhaps I love her.Love is so short and oblivion so long.

Because on nights like this I held her in my arms,my soul is lost without her.

Although this may be the last pain she causes me,and this may be the last poem I write for her

..........................................

watching The L word: this show will soon turn me into a lesbian.

signing off,

chanel

♥ the last words are written at 2:30 PM

DEPRESSION....

nothing can explain how i'm feeling now.

somebody save me.

♥ the last words are written at 11:28 AM

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

RANDOM THOUGHTS

my all-time favourite doggy is BACK~!



mr horny's new rug.
pot luck in class E55A!
i love these crazy bunches of people.

NO PHOTOS PLEASE......
syima was caught in the act.

went to watch The Dark Night with mr horny during the UOB movie event. well, it was afterall an ok movie, not as mind blowing as i thought, and the movie was waaaaay too long that i even realised i was watching a movie! (which is not a good thing as you are suppose to be 'one' with the movie while watching it to be fully enthralled) and what's worse, i sat till my ass hurts.

i have to admit that the Joker is one cool dude and he pretending to be a red head nurse... it sure knocked my zonkers off man!! and blowing up that hospital, cooool.

and and and Christin Bale!! aww man, he's HAWT! seriously, that bod sizzles. but i got kinda irritating when he talks in the 'i-think-its-macho' voice when all he sounded was like he was having a bad sore throat.

but you know what intimidated me most??

i'm sitting in the midst of hundreds of debtors.

yes~!! and they are BIG debtors who owes the bank a hell lot of money, thus, the bank having this event to thank them for borrowing so much from them. and no, i'm not a debtor.

i think that's that for now.

toodles.

signing off,
chanel

afterpost rantings:

i don't understand why the hell am i so concerned for. its your money.

you do what's ethical to you. i have no comments, since it only seems to make matters worse.

it does not mean that just because they gave us something means they can make us go round in circles. twisting their words here and there is only a waste of time. do what's right to you, i don't want to have any say in this anymore since all you think of me is that i am being unreasonable.

i seriously don't understand. i don't.

i have enough of this shit and its up to you to decide. period.

♥ the last words are written at 3:41 PM

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

doggy's day out at the beach~

its a day out at the beach for ah fat with lotsa sand, sea and shivers ~!

as you can see from the pictures, its a TINS(there is no sun) day, which is still fine ( even if my tan was imperceptible as there was my 2 beloveds..


ah fat spending a few moments reminiscing about god know's what.


trying to take a picture of my reflection my guess bag, failling terribly though.
ah fat aka sandy



caught him bio-ing at other char bo.caught her bio-ing at other hunks (husky and retrievers).

mr horny was too bored and started a mission to bury ah fat


after 1/2hr..........

still not giving up......
at last....

lazy ah fat slept all the way on the ride home..
love,
chanel






♥ the last words are written at 12:11 PM

Monday, July 14, 2008

i lurrve ah fat!!

I LURRVE MY BABY GURL <3 <3

name: ah fat aka aquarius aka sandy (TBA)
age: 5 mths
gender: female
description: cuteness beyond depiction.





she's my weakness. all thanks to mr horny. i love you too la.
love,
chanel

♥ the last words are written at 10:37 AM

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

ITE OR NOT? SICK AND TIRED

ITE OR NOT? SICK AND TIRED

stupid fever,cramps and sore throat. can things get any worse? apparently yes.

school seems even suckier than usual, making a bad presentation of myself despite my efforts to maintain my facade. friends around me seem to know what's going on in my private life and it sorts of scares me.

loadsa thanks to my chrissy gurl. thanks for forcing me to the doctor's and even paying it for me. gurls out there~ this gentlemen's still available!

see chrissy, i care about your welfare, and there you are saying that i bo chup. help you advertise to get your potential girlfriend. oh bless my kind soul. hahas.

a change in blogskin~ and i even did it within 1/2hr. can i get any smarter?

current addiction: ghost whisperer

this tv show has apparently led me into a state of paranoia.

signing off,

love

chanel

ps: thanks fel, for all that you've said, but somehow you made me think like there's more than meets the eye. i'm seriously uncertain of my decisions and of course will bear your words in mind =) loves

♥ the last words are written at 2:09 PM

Friday, July 04, 2008

I'M SORRY

TEARDROPS

on the way home, a thousand thoughts went through my mind, not knowing why he was speeding. was it because of his friend? was it because he was angry? was it because he wanted he wanted to get rid of me? probably.was it because he wanted me to get home asap to rest? i doubt.

i'm sorry that i came out of the house late
i'm sorry that i had to wait three buses before getting on
i'm sorry that a guy came on the bus before the stop i'm alighting to ask for questions
i'm sorry that i had to run all the way from that very stop before spraining my god damn ankle
i'm sorry that i made you wait so long
i'm sorry that i was borned anemia
i'm sorry that i made you drive all the way to yishun dam just to turn back to tampines
i'm sorry that i made you worry
i'm sorry that i made you angry

i'm sorry. i really am.

♥ the last words are written at 11:28 PM

random thoughts


RANDOM THOUGHTS




i can corroborate that i DO have alot of things in mind to blog about YESTERDAY, but due to my averse procrastination, something which i feel i am born with, i'm dry. i am able to make mental notes to myself on what to blog on, but when it come to facing my screen and the keyboard, i can't seem to remember shit.





this was taken a few weeks back i guess, when mr.horny caught a bunny using those 'rip-you-off-trick-machines' at the arcade. i think he spent around 20 buck on it?



me and my sis, training her into a cam-whore


a random maserati lool-alike jag. blame the photographer(mr horny) for such a low quality image with the it looking a little slighted.



speaking of jag, mr horny's mum luurrrrvvess these cars, qoute: 'my mum loves to drive animals'. when i asked about why is it that she don't drive japanese cars, qoute:'then the banker will come knocking on our door' . however, its saddening that even for the well-offed, they are restricted to driving only 'designer' cars, which in other words, NO JAPANESE CARS. not even rich fart cars like the 2008 Nissan Skyline GT-R.



which is sad, as it seems that people are caught in a vicious cycle. the poor are restricted due to finances while the rich are restricted due to reputation.

lurvin' GOSIP GIRLS TO THE MAX~~!! serena van der woodson is hot Hot HOT! just finish the last episode last week, impatiently waiting for the 2nd season!


you should watch it~! and this is coming from a fan of romance and musical films. visually stunning and relentlessly entertaining, IT IS THE MAX~ downside, with such a hot chic, why is here only one kissing scene???
*SPOILER*
to mr horny: WHY MUST ANGELINA JOLIE DIE???

ok, he's going to kill me.
signing off,
love,
chanel









♥ the last words are written at 10:03 AM