Thursday, November 29, 2007

goin china in a few hours time

BEFORE I LEAVE.......

some words before i leave and to spread some love among those important to me. i'm leaving in a few hours time, which i am just as reluctant. but i still gotta leave. might be some time before i blog again, so please please don't forget about me yea??

personally, i DO NOT think i will survive the cultural clash when i'm in China. due to me not being able to communicate as fluently in chinese as before and that i cannot stand people who cannot speak fluent english, or at the very least COMPREHENSIBLE english. so do pray for me people.

loves.......

mr horny: although you made me VERY pissed, you are forgiven yea?? see... i told you i'm nice by nature. and please DO NOT get into trouble, if you know what i mean. i'm entrusting Bam Bam in your hands and make sure i do not get a stick hamster when i get back yea.he must be fatter then before!! and yes i still love you.

fel: will try my best to help you get all your stuff you mentioned and I HEARTS YOU!!! (mr horny insisted on keeping Bam Bam)

vera: i'll get for you your 'cute' noddy thingy that works by solar power. just don't love lion too much till you forget about me or i'll throw your noddy thing outta the window.

anna: you know what to do yea?? THANKS LOTS!! i love you lotsa too!!!

and also to those who are sending me off the airport, which includes family members and friends, thanks and i love you lotsa too!!

loadsa misses!!!

love,
chanel

♥ the last words are written at 8:20 PM

Saturday, November 24, 2007

BEER SUCKS

i seriously should get a hold on my temper. this PMS shit is going WAY too far.

friends should know that i hate beer of ANY sort. and yet, i manage to down a crateful of Heinekein, which is a dozen cans of beer, which is also equivalent to 3960ml of disgusting liquid.

what's the point of drinking you may ask, well, to get some booze into my system. since there's no Remy Martins or Graveyards or Vodka Cranberries, i just got to to settle for what's there in my fridge, and yes, Heinekein. my dad's so gonna kill me.

how can people drink this stuff anyway, its taste is disgusting, its frigging gassy and one must drink half a dozen before one can feel the effects of the alcohol. by then, you'll feel frigging bloated all you want to do is just sit there and die.

head's spinning. think i'm gonna be sick!

♥ the last words are written at 8:28 PM

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

HATING MYSELF

STARTING TO HATE MYSELF

and i really mean it.

got off the phone with mr horny just now and towards the end, i started hatig myself more and more with the cold-blooded things i say, and yet all this time, i do not even mean it. i'm sorry if i hurt you in my choice of words and tone, but your's was just as insensitive.

after the ginormous fall i had, i tried to learn to be strong, and at the same time protect myself from getting hurt, really do not want to relieve the pain the past experience has brought. and yet, while in the process of learning to be strong, i find the old me dissappearing, the one i prefer, in the process of hardening my outer shell,it sort of affected me inside that i thought it would be better to harden myself inside too. little did i know that it would hurt me myself and the people around me.

people who knew me well knew that i was an extremely carefree, and i really mean that i do not give a damn about things, unless the problems will jeopardise my life or something.

but now, i'm hogged down by thoughts of money and the flood of emotions makes me talk really tactlessly. well, I HATE IT.

i used to care less about money, but now, how to get more and more jobs, which ones will pay me more. maybe its because i rely on ricky too much in the past financially that it has now made me into miser, making me scringe in every way possible just so that i have enough to spend on weekends. yes, i know that money is not everything, but now, to pass each day all requires money.

i'm sorry to those i still owe birthday presents to, i'll get them asap when i get myself a job.

regarding the flood of emotions, it might just be my stupid pms, or maybe i've been repressing these emotions for far too long. many a times i feel that just brushing aside a certain feeling, it might just go away, and yet, it still comes back to haunt me. ashamed of these feelings, yes, i admit. and try as i might to be strong, i've conceded defeat, i'm not.

maybe its just my pms

signing off, its coming 2.30 in the morning

love,
chanel

♥ the last words are written at 1:49 AM

Sunday, November 18, 2007

fun over the weekend.....

FUN OVER THE WEEKEND AND SOME UGLY PEOPLE

went for THE confrontation with lion to meet my cousin vera's ex and man, when i laid eye on him, i straight away turned to my cousin and asked her "why in the first place do you set eyes for guys like this????" not meant for sarcasism but rather, more of a matter-of-factly.

and i swear, that talking for him for 15 mins, have made me WASTE 15 mnins of my life!! he is like one of the densest person i've ever in my life talked to.

me: so you suspect lionel of insulting yur girl on her tagboard?

him: no, i don't suspect him, i only THINK it is him

me: are yu trying to contradict yourself?

him: .........

me: and you say that your frend told you that it is lionel who did it

him: yes,i trust my friend

me: how credible is he and what make you think he is as reliable as you think? how much credibility does he have to back up his case??

him: ..... i trust my friend

me: -_-'''

me: so what do you want me to do now?

him: nothing

me: then what's the whole point of this whole confrontation???

him: i don't know

me: -_-'''

how can anyone be this shallow?? he was the one who called for this confrontation and he does not even know what he wants?? crap shit i tell you.

him being ugly is not that much a problem, but he do not even have the intellect to save his life!

and his girl?? yea. he has a GIRLFRIEND and he wants my cousin back! please,do you even think you're good enough for my cousin?? all the more have TWO girlfriends???

oh yea, about his girl, she complains that she has been insulted in her tagboard that she looks like a male, which to me, was more of a fact than an insult. not meaning to insult la, i'm not that evil.

woots~~

had duperlicious fun over the weekend. at last manage to go out with my darlin' hommie fel and AT LAST i manage to get some serious BIKE rounding! went to meet fel and cyril at yishun and they had the cheek to make lao niang wait for more than 45 minutes!!

sky has changed his bike to a RVF and man, it feels like a super 4 despite it is a sports bike. really smooth, and how can i prove?? my nose did not itch.

yes, my nose is that sensitive that a raw engine like the mito can make my nose itch like mad.

oh yea, back to friday, went to vivocity to meet up with the rest, rodney, one more guy and two other girls (which fel told me that apparently, one of them, the one who is a tanned ah lian with golden hair ((hey, won't that look like a harajuku girl?)), is rodney's new girl) went to watch 'beuwulf' ( think it is spelt like that) which half the time had me thinking if the movie was real or animated. bottomline: extremely good animation with a healthy dose of comedy and shocks.

went rounding a little after the movie and of all roads, they had to go past thompson road, which i think froze me inside out. it was that cold at night, and can you imagine the guys were all racing?? if i did not have the helmet on, i think i'll have gotten a major brain freeze.

but i don't really care, love the feeling of freedom it gives. the feeling of openess that cars can't give. the wind blowing directly on your face. whee~~~

went to meet mr horny, clement and ivan later at seletar dam while watching a few cool cars and bikes ride past us.

had a major sleep in on saturday, with mr horny calling me every now and then to get up from my sweet slumber. met up with him to go plaza singapura and you know what?? the christmas decorations are up!! white sparkly lights that brighens up the place........


mr horny was so nice to buy me a BIG PINT of BEN & JERRY'S . an extremely sinful orgasmic feeling i tell you.

church on sunday, after which, went to my uncle's car showroom for his opening ceromony.


what's a ceromony without ballons yea??

 mitsubishi FTO, NICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.......

ARGH!!!!! favourite car!! love the Honda Accord EURO-R. god bless the person who buys me this car!

my baby cousin, he has oh such pinchable cheeks, like BAM BAM!!

the doggie that scared me while i was on the way to the toilet. uber guai de lor.

random photo of my new shoes, thanks to my aunt, who knows my taste. god bless you too.

signing off,

love,
chanel.



i am the righteousness of God in Christ!!

♥ the last words are written at 11:38 PM

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

intereresting and controversial issues

SO MANY ISSUES..

its coming to the end of the week and i've gotten more and more new knowledge on certain interesting facts and issues.

first up, read up about the 'ecstasy of st teresa' which is a very famous sculpture by Bernini. found out the existance of this sculpture from a book by Dan Brown 'Angels and Demons', thanks to Clement for lending it to me.

it is said that st teresa was a nun, and while she was sleeping, she was visited by an angel. however, her enounter was more sexual than spiritual and the sculpture actually depicts her having an orgasm.
his great golden spear.......filled with fire.....plunged into me several times...penetrated to my entrails.....a sweetness so extreme that one cold not possibly wish it to stop.


now, this had led me to think, if this was really true, could it be that the vigin mary also had a similar experience and thus leading to the birth of jesus?? yes, she may be a virgin, as she had not had intercourse with any mortal man, but what about immortal? oh well, just a passing thought. no offence to catholics out there.

mr horny AT LAST played the guitar for me!! well, as i was busy strumming away in his acoustic guitar (not that i had any idea how to play it) and bugging him to teach me, he decided to shut me up by demo-ing for me by playing the intro of 'nothing else matters' by Metallica.

well, over web cam, i kept bugging him to play it again for me and i secretly took this photo. *chuckles*

only one word to describe: mesmersing.

never really people playing instruments for me before, maybe except for the buskers on the streets, but it really was a really nice warm FUZZY feeling inside.

scenario: the usual gang of people tanning at the shores of siloso beach, witnessing the magnificency of the sunset, and suddenly, mr horny whips out his guiter from behind him and starts strumming away beside a campfire. how romantic yea??

except, i have no idea how is he gonna just whip out a guitar out of thin air and i think it is illegal to actually start a campfire on the beach.

anyway, there's this person i am getting more and more exasperated with. not only is he self-centred, he ACTS like a know-it -all, steals credits from the hard work of others, speaking out of points during presentations, contradicts his fellow team members and speaks too much for his own good.

sorry for the sudden bitching, had to get it off my chest though.

was in the same group as benjamin today and we started talking about THE Hillsong Conference. aww man, now i wished i was there. and benjamin as like, your pastor in such a great speaker!!

oh yea. you can say that again.

PASTOR PRINCE ROCK!!

be jealous people, be VERY jealous, coz' he's my church pastor!! i mean seriously, he is one of the best speakers i've heard. he changed my perspective of my Daddy God and i could never thank him more. at least now i look forward for church every sunday!

was in a discussion wth my facilitator during break time about why don't the local universities have degrees for philosophy( getting interested in it man!) and he said something about how the available degrees in singapore are what singapore's economy needs, like sciences and business.

anyway, it led to a discussion about why isn't the government doing anything about the sky hghg cut-off points for polytechnic admissions. sad but true, i wanted to get into courses like veteinary and psychology, but the cut-off points was 10 and 9 respectively. furthermore, students appliacable for junior colleges are not going to their rightful positions in those schools.

think about it, if more and more 'smarter' students were to decide to enrol to a polytechnic and that the cut-off points get higher and higher every year, what is there left for the more average students??

eventually the discussion died off as the lesson starts . as today's topic was on 'science vs religion' (thus the sudden interest of philosophy), i manage to find an intersting fact about how intricately the earth was made, something that science is not able to explain till now.

The Earth...its size is perfect. The Earth's size and corresponding gravity holds a thin layer of mostly nitrogen and oxygen gases, only extending about 50 miles above the Earth's surface. If Earth were smaller, an atmosphere would be impossible, like the planet Mercury. If Earth were larger, its atmosphere would contain free hydrogen, like Jupiter.3 Earth is the only known planet equipped with an atmosphere of the right mixture of gases to sustain plant, animal and human life. The Earth is located the right distance from the sun, any further away from the sun, we would all freeze. Any closer and we would burn up.

cool yea??

also learned that there are also some aspects that religion actually compliments science. like karma- what goes around comes around, and newton's 3rd law- every action has an equal or opposite reaction

did not know that the hieracrchy of the social chain even exists in our school! here's what happend. this female classmate of mine called hui min went to fart into benjamin's face. turning to me,he said, the populars farts at the nerds. conversely, i wouldn't consider ben a nerd, judging from how is one of the funniest guys in my class.

alright, inspiration running dry, thus, writing getting dry.

signing off,

love,

chanel



ps: i've decided to name my future daughter che'nelle. don't you dare tell me how bimbotic it is. it either that or tittinger. but i prefer the previous.

pss: to lion, don't think so much yea!! i'll try my best to shoot that a**hole down!! maybe with a carbine or a SAR 21, what do you recommend? *chuckles*

psss: to anna, don't think too much too!! all things work together for the common good. so please do not ever ever do whatever you did again to yourself you hear me??! no man is ever worth what you did, and trust me, i've been there, done that. Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you because the guy who is worth your tears will never make you cry. i'll still be here if you need a listening ear yea!! cheer up girl!

♥ the last words are written at 3:02 PM

Sunday, November 11, 2007

hotness scale and honey pics

PROCRASTINATED......

oh well, why would i say that i was procrastinating?

because i intended to blog on thurs, but it was until today that i manage to obediently sit at my desk and gather SOME patience to upload SOME photos, which at the end, turned out to be quite alot!
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sorry, was watching my brother play kingdom hearts, was fascinated by the characters like, mulan, little mermaid, beauty and the beast and even chicken little!!

ARGHHH..... THE SKY IS FALLING!!

but the fighting scenes left me a little lost, since 3/4 of the time i did not know what was going on.

digressed again.... man i gotta stop doing that! i've lost my train of thoughts.

oh yea,went marina square on thursday with mr horny for some shopping. but somehow, we started cam-whoring. gonna make him join the club of cam- whores!!



 a face that you will feel like beating up.... -_-'''

biggy boss in the making
 trying to act cute yea!




when there is seriously nothing to do in the car.

went phuture-ing on friday with fel and karen again, and it was more fun then usual. we practically went crazy on the dance floor and seriously, it feels like you're on ecstasy. (not that i was really on ectasy, just a lousy analogy though). did not drink much that night, the music was too good to miss!

met a girl who has the groove in her, but something she did really turned me off. while the rest of us are being UNWANTEDLY grinded by guys surrounding us,speaking of which seems kinda magical, because as soon as we step unto the dance floor, (which is damn packed,) the guys seemed to surround us. which we all know is to get just that tad closer to the girls and hope that while dancing, the girls might brush against them or something.

about that, i feel that all fat people and those that just stand around doing nothing should be asked to leave the dance floor. seriously, all they do is just stand there and do NOTHING. except, well, stand there and take up space, which some others will appreciate more space to move around!!
anyway, about that girl, instead us getting UNWANTED grinding by guys, she does the grinding to some random guys! maybe she is just being WAY liberal then me, but at last i still have something called SELF-RESPECT. or maybe, she is just drunk.

maybe that is why most guys take girls who goes clubbing as WHORES,which we are definitely not. me and my friends are really a few girls who are there for the music and dance.one night stands?? DREAM ON GUYS!

found a few nice vintage pictures of pin up girls for the upcoming christmas season. getting more into vintage nowadays. SOONER OR LATER i will change my skin into a vintage one. chosen the skin and stuff, now the only thing left, is to do it up, provided my LAZINESS do not get in the way.






hot yea? so i've decided to do a post that has most of the hottest celebrities of our time!! to me, at least.
time to get the temperaure rising here...

ORLANDO BLOOM!! who can even resist his hotness.
CHAD MICHEAL MURRAY. HOT BOD YEA!!

some people told me to include wentworth miller, but to me, he's not as hot as people thinks he is.

for the ladies, i don't even know why they are alowed here. they should be banned from earth.

URGHH.. god must have spent more time on them.

PUSSYCAT DOLLS! well-known for the hot caberet kinda dance moves.

NICOLE SCHERZINGER. the leader of the pack. definetely the hottest of the gang.


JESSICA ALBA. every guy's fantasy, except for maybe mr horny, who will rather drool for a NISSAN SKYLINE. oh yea, and my brother too.


JESSICA SIMPSONS. not idea why nick will dump her, or is it the other way round? hmmm...

NICOLE KIDMAN. timeless classic beauty man!!


EVA MENDEZ
EVA LONGORIA. anyone wanna desperate housewife?
GWEN STEFANI. best dress sense ever.


BEYONCE
BRITNEY SPEARS. well, she made a comeback and yea, she's been down and out, but she WAS hot before yea?
CHRITINA AGUILERA. way out GLAM!


EMMY ROSSUM. sweetie-pie, but very hot in the movie Phantom Of The Opera.


ANGELINA JOLIE. one just gotta admit she's WAY HOT!


gotta learn this expression man! at least i'll look sexy while biting a fruit.

RIHANNA. she definitely look sexier with this hairstyle, giving her a more sophisticated air about her. all hail her hairstylist!

VANESSA HUDGENS. maybe not hot, but absolutely pretty enough.
who can miss the ANGELS of VICTORIA SECRETS

 undefeated GISELE BUNDCHEN. one of victoria's secrets angels.

another victoria's secret angel. one may find her a comon face if they frequent victoria secret's website. sadly, i can't find her name. but to me, she's one of the best looking one around.

FRAN of final fantasy XII . she might be virtual and all, but she is HOT!!
alright, should join my brother in his game of KINGDOM HEARTS II since i made him replay the whole game for my sake. feeling a bit bad as there he is playing, here i am blogging.
signing off,
love,
chanel














♥ the last words are written at 1:33 AM

Monday, November 05, 2007

OVER THE WEEKEND.....

can't believe that i actually gave in over a tub of BEN AND JERRY'S.

anyway, went sentosa again with the usual people, anna, mr horny and clement. did not spend too long there though, coz lao niang here has gotta go to grammy's. oops, i mean granny's.


mr horny was trying to steal the limelight with his fingers.

on my way to church on sunday, can't help cam-whoring again. had a clubing kinda get up for church though, complete with made up hair, black stockings and heels.
went for a dinner with family with michelle and her mum at hougang area. mr horny missed me too much and insisted to meet me after that.
on the way back home, it started to pour and mr horny was kinda sweet throughout the journey, shall not elaborate on it though. besides, mr horny did something that night for the VERY FIRST TIME YEA?? can't help being fascinated. now its my turn to REVIEW!! must commit it to memory yea?
oh yea, digressed.
on the way back, in the pouring rain, mr horny's jag's wheel punctured, so we had to stop under a bridge to change to the spare tyre. was enthralled about the fact that there is actually a spare tyre in the boot, hidden!! how cool is that?? and the fact that my dad has a hidden spare wheel too!! so, mr horny did some manly job (changing tyres) which was kinda, erm............ ahem, mesmerizing, i admit.

the puntured tyre and the biggo rims of the jag.

oh well, i am a certified cam-whoress, so this is what certified cam-whoress do right? while waiting for the tyres to get changed.
shall sign off
love,
chanel



♥ the last words are written at 1:51 PM