Friday, August 03, 2007

i want ricky back

BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY

to those who has been telling me to update, well, sorry for the lack of updates. the sudden flood of problems caught me offguard till i find myself at a lost.

conversed with him over the phone last night, not knowing if it s suppose to be a good idea or not. afterall, for the past 1 and 1/2 yrs, it was he whom i confided in. i needed someone whom actually understands my situation through and through.

although he made me tell, i only told him around half of the problems that i'm facing. i felt that i should'nt be exposing too much of feelings anyway, knowing full well the way he's going to talk to me. besides, there are things that are better left unsaid but yet is affecting the way i think and feel far more than i thought.

there's those usual relationship and family thingy. but now, school life and even my own health is turning against me. regarding the health issue, fel is the one and only person on the face of this earth to know the details and i hope that it remains that way thank you very much.

no mood to blog. night people.

love,
chanel

ps: fel, i really do not wish to see a doctor for this, i'm really scared of the results.but i promise, if the condition worsens, i'll go see ok? meanwhile, just pray for me and hope that i get better yea??