Tuesday, July 03, 2007

bad times do last

BAD TIMES DO LAST

well, i used to lie to myself that bad times don't last, but the truth is, it does. the reason for this entry is that people have been nagging at me to update my blog, and not because i wanted to. not exactly in the mood right now for anything.

problems have not been depleting despite how strong i try to be. instead, its surmounting like nobody's business. areas which revolves around my life and that are bloody important to me is just crumbling into pieces, like a wall after war. love, family and friends. much as they are important to me, its just killing me instead, suffocating me in any way possible. despite all this, who am i to judge the future?

what more, my only pillar of strength is, how can i say, is almost gone. the shoulder i used to lean for comfort and support on seems beyond my reach. how i yearn for that. who can blame me for jumping to conclusions in times like these??

both emotional and physical aspects of me is failing. lost more weight than i expected and to add to that, bad flu and fever.

because of the excessive weight lost, i was kind of shocked when my levi's jeans could fit me no longer. it seems horribly loose out of a sudden and seems to hang on to me because of the belt. ok, i admit that i've cut down on meals, alot, and that i've excercised more than usual, but to lose more than 5kgs in 2 weeks?? i should seriously open a slimming centre of my own. no operations, injections or pills needed.

i will not talk about the details of whatever has happen, in case some bitch/ bastard come reading my blog and start bitching rumours about me again. i've had enough of all these ignorant, childish imbeciles.

anyway, my life is a piece of shit right now, anymore agitations from people who are of no relevance to the current situation and has totally no comprehension will be seriously considered to be prosecuted. you know who you are, so scram!

love
chanel

ps: heartfelt thanks to fel, kel and zul for just being there. and to hui xin for what you wrote on my taggie, time does not heal all wounds, it just makes you numb to the pain of it.