Friday, March 16, 2007

pissed off by my own dear

well, i'm pissed off with dear again, with a reason i oso do not know myself. from what have happened the past few weeks, i found myself an emotional wreck.

i went all the way to dear's house yesterday just to find him, since he was on mc from army,without his knowing. the whole day was quite alright,with dear keep shouting at me while playing maple. man, i'm starting to hate that game. dear kept insisting that he isn't addicted to the game, but well, it is quite obvious actually. he cannot even keep himself from the computer for even 15 mins. well, i even have some time to read.

well, that is not the problem, or maybe it is. i'm not very sure myself. it started when we were in the car on the way home. dear kept trying to call someone on the phone,seemingly very desperate, leaving me lots of time to think. i was, well, reflecting, on how fruitful the whole day was and i found out, for the whole day, for 9 hours, at dear's house was playing maple. not my idea of fruitful.

i'm the kind of girl, even if we cannot go out, we can just stay home and cuddle each other to watch tv or vcds. even if there's nothin to watch, just talking to each other will be fine. well, after all, its still quality time well spent.if we just played maple for the whole day, i might as well save on the transport fee and just stay home to play maple? dear call it quality time, but hello? we're all in our own fantasy world while playing maple.

it just seems that we cannot even talk if we're beside each other unless we're on the phone. maybe, if fate really allows, we get married and maybe, i can just call him on the phone and just talk, knowing full well he's right beside me.

well, we're on a cold war now.

love
chanel